Chronic Decadence
based on the painting
“Decadent young woman. After the Dance”
by Ramon Casas (1899)
Hold my head holy fuck hold me up, I’ve been tap-dancing with hammers for hours.
Holy holy holy fuck, hold me, hold me up! But phantoms fling me above earth,
swing me dizzy cloud through cloud, soar me, soar me, soar! oh! me! torn
apart from tender flesh to weightless wonder
and awe
and I’m alive
and it’s astonishing –
astonishing!
how everything looks now from this cushion:
light is not a problem anymore
heat is not a problem
daily chores emails texts
not my fucking problem
there lies a body here oh yes
but not a problem
not one problem