Clean
I watch extraction videos on the internet
to convince myself impurities can be
removed – oh, god will I ever be clean
of you?
Wash me in lilac, in dew drop
in stump rot, in moss top.
Let me wear the decay;
let the shell of me reflect
the inner workings of this
soft wilderness underbelly.
Let me die with the autumn
to rise again triumphant
in unwearied, too-green spring.
There can be no life without
death, no growth without decay.
Show me an extraction
worth believing in.